These Are The Letters I Never Sent

A song about the words you keep to yourself, and the people who never get to know how much they changed you.

This song grew out of an idea I’d carried around for years. I used to imagine writing letters to my mum and dad—not because I expected to send them, but because sometimes it was easier to write things down than try to say them out loud.

When someone is only in and out of your life, there are so many questions that never get asked. There are things you want them to know, things you wish they understood, moments you replay in your head wondering if they could have gone differently. Those thoughts don’t just disappear. They end up filling pages.

The letters in this song aren’t angry, even if some of them come from hurt. They’re about trying to understand people who always seemed just out of reach. As I’ve got older, I’ve realised my parents weren’t heroes or villains—they were just people, carrying their own dreams and their own mistakes. That doesn’t make everything okay, but it does make it easier to see them as human.

I think a lot of us have conversations we’ll probably never have. Maybe it’s because the moment has passed, maybe it’s because we don’t know where to begin, or maybe because writing the words down is enough.

For me, this song was those conversations. It was a chance to say everything I’d been carrying without needing an answer back. Sometimes healing doesn’t come from getting a reply. Sometimes it comes from finally finding the courage to tell the truth, even if it’s only to yourself.